Breaking

The silence is heavy the silence of darkness the silence of hollow, wandering murmurs the silence of distances that I thought your warm presence would bring to an end. The anxious gaze of the mice in the corridors will not give wings to the eagle’s chicks. The leprosy of fear has gnawed the nerves of my eyelids do you see? Break the wall! There is a star there a dark star I come from the dead dark star I burn from the onslaught of the fire of doubt all my bones are molten in the flames of doubt and I long to be certain now that within your breast, here in the black of night, a bud has sprouted the bud of the sun the bud of Saturn. Tell me how you passed through - have you passed through? - Break the wall! The silence is heavy. and the stretching of futile silence - don’t you know? has joined the gallows the livid gallows of the dark star the gallows of loneliness the gallows of rotting. Did the moment of faith flee? Did the moment of union flee? if only I had said break the wall!..